Blarg

Well, I’ve failed to quit. When will I learn!? I did it without even thinking and now I’m smoking again. I didn’t even realize what I was doing until I came out of my meditation. But there I was sitting on my yoga mat with a cigarette stuck between my lips. Omg it was so totally stupid.

One of my friends said that when she was trying to quit she meditated with a pack laying in front of her ,and concentrated on why she smoked in the first place and then on how she wouldn’t do it again. I couldn’t stop at just one tho, oh no later on I found myself craving a smoke and ended up begging my dad for one.

I called my support group and they say that a one day slip up is okay as long as I identify where I went wrong and correct it in the future, but I can’t see it like that. I failed the program and I know it. I guess I’ll just start over at day one, and this time I’m not going to try the meditation thing. Either way I’m going to keep on trying.